Letters to No One In Particular

and you don’t even give a damn. You’ll just keep pushing me further away. And it’s my fault, because I knew about those walls you’ve got set up since the beginning, but I thought I could find my way over or through them. I thought I was making some headway… I thought I was fighting my way in and winning for a while. But you, you’ve just been reinforcing those walls this whole time. I was closer to you before I even knew you, and now I’m just a shadow in the background of your life story. And why haven’t I walked away yet? I’ve thought about it almost every damn day. Is it pride or dignity? Is it because I hate to lose? Or is it because I know it’s my fault for letting it go this long.. this far. Do I even love you anymore or do I just want to conquer you? Well, you’ll never let me do that, so what’s the point in me sticking around?…. you’ll never even give me one and I’ll still stand by your side, because it’s you who’ve conquered me, and I’ve got no fight left, I just want to be with you. 

perpetuallyrackingmybrains:

• Tea
• Soup
• Netflix
• Nyquil
• Bed

This is all I wanted yesterday…. 

Bid me; search the world over once and twice a lifetime,

and despite ceaseless wanderings and sedulous efforts,

I swear I’d never find one such as you.

For where all others find beauty in trivial fashions,

I see God’s resplendence in your eyes,

and when lust pulls weaker hearts down to desire,

I am not slave to her savage will.

But for pure, unremitting passion you will never want,

in that I am constant and unwavering.

And when anger and wrath weaken your amour,

I will endure, for you are all I merit.

Fear not my admiration; entrust, to me, your heart.

All your life, you’ve known loneliness and desecration,

and where others have wounded and neglected you,

I offer healing and peace, love’s true form.

Accept me, I beg you, allow yourself to be cherished,

and I will love you as you have always deserved to be loved.

- R. Macklin 2011